R & R

Don’t I just have the sweetest husband? I loved his cute guest post yesterday. I was going to post about the salads he made for dinner, but like he said, I unfortunately got sick again soon after he was done making dinner.

And thank you all for your well wishes to get better! I am feeling better today. A doctor I went to on Monday thinks it may be something from one of the many viruses going around. I think a lot of it has to do with stress.

I’m the kind of person that has the tendency to become more of an emotional eater when I get “stressed” or feel pressure over more trivial things. However, when I’m really, truly stressed, usually more than I even realize, I lose all appetite. This is how I’ve been for the past week. I have had no appetite. I have been having to force myself to eat the few foods I am eating. Please don’t start throwing accusations of eating disorders and anything like that at me. I promise, I do not have an eating disorder. I am very aware of myself, my body, my food intake, and nutrition and healthy lifestyles. I am trying to eat, even if they are small meals, and I am doing all I can to still keep everything nutritionally balanced with carbohydrate, protein, veggies, and fruits. It’s also hard when some nights I’ll throw up before I even get a chance to eat anything.

Anyway, I would definitely appreciate more prayers and support. I have still been sticking to my training schedule for my very first 5k on Sunday. I was feeling very confident and prepared for it, and was going to start working on bringing my time down, but obviously when you’re struggling with your food intake you are definitely not going to be properly fueled for cardio activity. Such was the case with last night. I was on a 3 mile jog with my husband but only made it 2.25 miles, maybe a little further, before I had to stop because I was getting dizzy and seeing spots. I wanted to cry. I had to sit down on a bench before I could walk without getting dizzy again.

So today is definitely a rest and relaxation day. And a “focus on increasing your food intake” day! So I’ve caught up a little bit on some of your blogs, am (obviously) posting myself, have thoroughly cleaned my kitchen and the bathrooms (haha not exactly R & R but I can’t relax in a dirty home), and plan on spending the rest of my day with my nose stuck in my nutrition text.

Today is definitely not a job search day. FYI, that is the source of my stress. It’s absolutely ridiculous how many places, how many absolutely LAME places (some you don’t even need to have graduated HIGH SCHOOL from) I have applied to and have STILL not gotten a job! It’s so frustrating. We’re definitely starting to feel a little more financial pressure (I am the one who likes to be in control, super organized, etc., and to not have an income, not really be saving, etc., it really stresses me out). And it’s just so hard when you feel like you’re doing all you can to try to be responsible but sometimes it just feels like all forces are against you.

Anyway, I’ll be back later. Hopefully Ross and I can make a fun dinner together tonight. Thanks again guys! Much, much love.

LC